Slacking, Thinking, Hello, Goodbye.

I don't blog well when I'm unhappy, hence the lack of posts last week. However, I am up, running, and smiling again!

This was a long week, filled with thoughts and friends and [school]work. Twas good all in all. :) I'm a bit behind on homework, so I hope to rest this evening and tomorrow, and catch up on reading and note-taking. I've passed my first two quizzes, and am enjoying most of my classes. In computer class, the awesome professor had emergency surgery and I'm feeling iffy about our substitute. Yoga class is doing my mind and body a lot of good. Math is just..going to take work. Voice is going very well. :) In Psychology, my professor has views that conflict with my personal beliefs, but she is none the less a great teacher and the material is fascinating.

I need to work more. Or at least pack lunch for school instead of always buying it.

On Sunday I'm heading up to PA for a going-away party...a life-long friend is heading to boot camp. :-/

If I could sum up what has been bothering me lately, I would say the transientness of life is something I highly dislike and often stubbornly refuse to accept. If I feel safe and content, I get my heart set on what is, to the point that I forget about what could come or be. Does anyone else feel that way?

"Life is made up of meetings and partings. People come into your life every day, you say good morning, you say good evening, some stay for a few minutes, some stay for a few months, some a year, others a whole lifetime. No matter who it is, you meet then you part. I’m so glad I met you...”

I have also always loved these lyrics:

"thoughts they change and times they rearrange I don't know who you are anymore
loves come and go and this I know I'm not who you recall anymore
but I must confess you're so much more then I remember
can't help but entertain these thoughts
thoughts of us together"

I'm done being contemplative. I wish you a wonderful weekend!

P.S. I just started listening to Sleeping At Last and am entranced. Check out "Porcelain." I read the lyrics after I posted this entry and found them slightly ironic.

"Nicest Thing"

This is from a song by Kate Nash.

"I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep."

I'm sorry to spam with song lyrics, but it's too perfect and I don't have time to express everything I want to at this moment. A original update coming soon.

First Week, Fall '09

I started my second year as a CCBC student this week. Monday morning was SO WEIRD- after working all summer on a dead campus, seeing people EVERYWHERE was...disconcerting?! lol. But no, I was really happy to see everything start up and go to class again.

On M/W/F I have Math class. This is my second try at this level course (Intermediate Algebra), and I must pass it. My teacher is GREAT; I love her personality and how she has arranged her teaching plan. I'm feeling good about this one. :-D

Mondays are the day for Barnstormers meetings. This is the campus theatre club, and I am president for my second semester. At our first meeting attendance was double what it was last semester, and people had lots of great ideas for activities and events. I've had a visit with our advisor, Carl, already and he is as full of support as ever. I must admit I'm dragging my feet a little on paperwork that needs to be done, but I will finish all that this weekend. Elections for secretary and treasurer happen at our next meeting and I'm excited for that.

Tuesdays are long- Hatha Yoga, Computer Information 101, Honors Psychology 101, and and Applied Voice (singing lessons) and then I work in the Honors Center for an hour til close. I'll comment about the individual classes as time goes one, but they are all great in their own way. Thursdays will be exactly the same, minus voice lesson plus an extra hour of work.

On Monday and Tuesday I was a part of the "First Week" volunteer staff, which means I walked around campus with a bright green t-shirt that says "STAFF" on the back, and guided students who had questions. I've run into some of my City On The Hill kids who will be students this semester, plus some of my dear I Hate Hamlet crew/cast. :)

On Wednesdays and Fridays I'll be working at AMF, but didn't this week. So I was at school all day long all five days, got in some extra work hours, caught up with friends, and tracked down some scholarship paperwork. It was a great week back!

Friday Night

So, I could have gone out. Instead, I was doing math homework and watching this.



I discovered I still have every word and lyric of the movie memorized. I also have rules of trinomials and factors memorized.

Judge as you see fit. ;)

September In Thumbtacks

I enjoyed my last cork board entry, and received some positive feedback on it. So, since it's like a nice little time capsule feature, I think I'll do it every month. You will find that some things stay up for months at time, and some items are a revolving door of tasks and reminders. Here is September on my wall (New items are in bold!)

1. The front of a greeting card I found in New Hampshire. It reads "Life Begins At The End Of Your Comfort Zone."
2. Audrey Hepburn calender- A shot from "Roman Holiday" this month. :)
3. List of driving instructors provided by my driving school (called one of them yesterday!)
4. A page from Glamour magazine featuring Hugh Dancy and model...it's a dashing photo! (I collect inspiring/glamorous magazine photos :)
5. A ticket from "I Hate Hamlet." I convinced myself the poster needed to finally come down, but didn't want to part with all reminder of my show. <3
6. Picture of Selene, "my" little Bolivian girl.
7. A handmade card from my best friend.
8. List of items to save for (bought school books and paid my phone bill. Taking the black dress in to be altered tomorrow :)
9. Title of a Sinatra album
10. A recent fortune from a Chinese cookie: Your life begins to be filled with adventure!
11. Name and email of an interesting guy I met at school....he works with the Youth Federation For World Peace and was encouraging me to check out his website and articles.
12. Ticket/wristband from Anberlin show.

I owe you all and myself an update about my first week of school....coming soon!